Lamentation of a pensioner

The words appearing here are the “Lamentation of a Pensioner”.

Happened to talk to an intellectual personality who has got 50 years of work experience and who has clearly understood Nepal and its functionality to its root. She started the talk saying, “I graduated in 1964 when you were not even born (She chuckled), and since then I have worked in various places. I have seen Nepal going through her high and low, and now see what we are really going through. I am sure, I will not see light (She meant electricity) in my lifetime, but hopefully, you guys will got to witness that.” She then continued with her another question fired at me with a little more frustration mixed with the her humorous side, “Why do they have to provide us with electricity when we have natural light for 12 to 13 hours? What’s the point in supplying with electricity during the time when you already have daylight?

During my talk with her, it was clearly evident that she loved Nepal as much as we all do. We all love Nepal. But, then, there are just few countable one those who have completely marred the image of Nepal and they have to be kicked out of their position because that is what dragging us down.

She continued, “The people of our country was the one who was once considered as the most trustable people and we had a great pride in British Army Force. British use to trust more on Nepalese soldiers even over their own soldiers. Even in Indian Army our people are in significant number and they were the one in the front line of defense during India’s 1999 Kargil War. Where has that pride gone?” Till when are we going to be vainglorious and keep on flaunting our hollow words which nobody is buying now.

She even said, “Even when India is grappling with its fake currency, we are still standing pure and unperturbed in that context though we have got open border.” So true!

She then added, “If you ask me, what have you earned during your entire life time, I would say, I have earned my children. I have made them capable of earning money without being corrupt. People those who have already tasted the corruption money, they will never try to work on their own will and they will keep on following the same path — It’s just like a man-eating Tiger — once they taste the blood of human being, they will stop hunting the wild animals.”

So true!

Investigation? Seriously?!

I am about to finish a book called “The Lone Survivor” by Marcus Luttrell”. A book being written by the lone survivor of SEAL TEAM of US task force deployed in Afghanistan. The story is about the team of 4 soldiers that includes all those who had been in their task within Afghanistan for more then three times. I am very much fascinated by this book and the way Marcus has written, and I duly and truly respect him and for what he has done. I feel like he is one of those US SEAL who deserves true respect and the acknowledgement of valor for what he has done for his country, and how he and his family rose from the ashes and made his capable for that revered position and status.

US has done a great deal for thousands of people from all around the world. But truth to be told, no body does anything for anyone unless there is some ulterior motif hidden inside it which is in favor of yourself. The reason is: “Have you ever given a single penny to somebody – even a beggar who is in desperate need of food, habiliment or something else?  I guess not! Yeah, there might have been certain circumstances when you/I might have been moved by their pathetic condition, but that is just some rare situations which do not normally happen and it should not be counted.

I do not want to hurt the sentiments of our those American friends and families who have lost their sons, daughters, wives, brothers, fathers, sisters, fiancée in the tragic incidence of 9/11. Even rewinding and reminding those events time and again through any means is like being disrespectful to those family, hurting them every time and I am not here to do that, because I know the value and the feeling of losing someone.

I an not in favor or against of some particular group, people, ideology or set of believes or country. I do not have to do anything with these things. The only thing that irks me is: “Whether there is any difference between a developed nation, civilized society and the so-called uncivilized society?” I mean, how are we going to define those terms? On what basis? There has to have some basic level of differentiation or some extra-terrestrial kind of virtues, either logically or hypothetically which might help us to define those terms – civilized and uncivilized.

There have been piles of thousands of document being investigated in the Iraq war, mistreatment of prisoners in Guantanamo bay prison: prisoners eye pocked and blinded, sleep deprived, bored in chilling water, confined in isolation hell dark dungeon, sexually abused (you can guess how, and whether they have anything left with that thing specially) – and surprisingly the investigation is going on and on. Few of them died because of the harsh treatment in the prison and the rules which immunize the soldiers dealing with those guys. Its already been more than 10 years now, but still there are those thousands of documents which have not been finished being investigated, the badger elements  has not yet been held accountable, and they have not yet been prosecuted. We all know these things even though we do not have some valid solid reason or proof to prove this. And, now, I am sick of this term “ INVESTIGATION”.

Honestly, I am infuriated with the latest news about the US soldiers urinating on the deceased Taliban body. At first even I felt like this is just like some other news, but when I kept on hearing and the responses from all over the world, and I felt this is not really good in any sense, at least not morally. This is the high time to question ourself and start looking at the mirror. It’s the time to question ourself: “Where do we really stand?”, “Are we really civilized and moral?”, “How can we differentiate ourself from those who lacks those moral sense, vibes and virtues?” “Will we be able to bring back those we have lost by indulging in such mortifying activities?” If not then what’s the use of denigrating ourself being a part of it?!

Our governments investigates the issues, take months, years and more years and finally they come to a conclusion after 10 or 20-years that the decision they made earlier was a mistake – a BIG mistake, and now they want to induct someone who is the real culprit, one who is the real offender and who have been at large for more than 20 years or something. They find those guys, prosecute them and finally put them in the list of capital punishment for their heinous crime. I don’t understand the use of carrying out all these investigation and sentencing someone of 70 or 80 years old or near about who are already half dead and they are naturally on the death list.

Nothing makes any sense to me at this juncture. I think it’s the time to take it more seriously and we should not count on their another new excuse — “INVESTIGATION”.